Updated: Oct 11, 2021
Susan Hendrix, MHA, Ph.D. 08/07/2021
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth.
My journey has been like the two roads, but in a different way. One of taking the road which is less traveled, because no one and I mean no one can understand, and go down that road with you. The ups and downs, the twist and turns of dealing with a chronic illness. Thou, you try to get others to understand what this illness is all about, but you sit and wonder if they really do understand or does it go in one ear and out the other? It's sad to say, for some (not all) it goes in one ear and out the other. No one truly understands, until it happens to them.
Often, I find myself feeling like that 5 year old little girl, looking out of the window wishing to go outside and play, but couldn't because I was either to sick or my mother knew that, if I did go out the rays of the sun would make me so very ill. So, now as an adult, I look out of the window. It's not about going outside, it's all about thanking God for another day. You see, God is the only one who truly knows my journey of dealing with this illness (Lupus). He has been right by my side through the ups, downs, twist and turns. And, I look out of the window and give "Thanks" for another day.
Life encompasses many twist and turns, life is a learning experience that was never taught in school. We learned our ABC but not the ABC of living life. As I enter into a new journey, a journey of lupus attacking lymphatic system, a journey, of soft tissue prominence of neoplastic etiology (Cancer) enlargement and heterogeneous enhancement of the parotid glands. I once again choose the road less traveled. A road that I must endure holding on to my faith, knowing once again that God will cover me with peace and understanding.
No one knows your journey, and one day or someday, you too will have to take your journey on the road less traveled. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I – I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference.